What My Honeymoon Taught Me About Intrusive Thoughts

If you struggle with anxiety, you’re probably no stranger to intrusive thoughts- the surprising, scary thoughts and images that seem to pop out of nowhere and cause you to dwell on them over and over. I’ve personally dealt with intrusive thoughts ever since my panic attacks began years ago, and sometimes I’ve been able to bat them away quickly while other times it’s been much more challenging not to get lost in the storyline.

When I went on my two-week honeymoon across Europe last month, I noticed that my anxiety was almost nonexistent. I also began to notice that the intrusive thoughts would still happen every now and then, but they wouldn’t stick around and therefore, weren’t an issue at all.

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The Choice of Peace

To be honest, the past few months have been challenging for me. Outside circumstances keep popping up and throwing me off and recently, something happened with family that caused me to question everything, and spiraled me into my old habits of anxiety and depression. I caught myself gripped in fear with worst-case scenarios and immobile with pessimism that things will never change or get better. I was walking around completely STUCK in my own misery. Continue reading

You Are Not Stuck: Neuroplasticity and the Ability to Change

When we’re struggling with mental health issues like anxiety, depression, and depersonalization, we can often begin to feel frustrated at our lack of progress. We might even begin to think that maybe it will always be this way. Even when we see others overcoming and flourishing, we might wonder whether we’re just stuck like this- that maybe our brains are just wired differently and there’s nothing we can do about it. Continue reading

Smiling at Fear

Fear does a really, really good job at convincing us it is real. Throughout my years of experiencing anxiety, panic, intrusive thoughts, depression, etc., I’ve had moments where I was so entangled in my thoughts and fears as being very real. As if I had every reason to be scared and to react and to fight and to give in. Continue reading

Working with Obsessive, Intrusive Thoughts and Fears

I am well-versed in obsessive fears. My anxiety finds something to cling to and then it obsesses. It goes over the fear again and again until I feel sick and immobile.

What is an obsessive, intrusive thought?

It’s any unwanted thought that pops into our head and scares us half to death. These thoughts are usually nowhere near plausible and don’t have an ounce of truth to them, like the intrusive thought, “what if I become a pedophile?” when you’re the gentlest person, and the likelihood of that happening is very, very, very low. Continue reading

5 Tools for Dealing with Intrusive Thoughts

Lately I’ve been struggling with intrusive thoughts. Everything under the sun. In the past week, I’ve gotten caught in thought loops surrounding: what if I become schizophrenic or develop post-partum psychosis? What if I become an alcoholic? What if I get divorced someday? What if I have children and they hate me? What if I relapse and don’t have a support system/can’t make my way out? What if my dog gets run over? What if my parents die in a car accident? Continue reading