I thought I’d write today to give an update of what’s been going on in my life and to share the beautiful lessons that have come from a time of uncertainty. Throughout my life, I’ve found that difficulty often presents us with the perfect opportunity for growth (though I’d much prefer to learn through joy rather than struggle, but that’s a whole other topic I need to cover soon). Continue reading
I’ve always had a difficult time expressing myself and an even more challenging time standing up for myself. It seems that, growing up, I never really learned how to use my voice, or that my voice was even important and that it’s okay to be heard. So when confrontation arose, I would just stay quiet, even when others were attacking me. It breaks my heart to think about all the times I SHOULD have stood up for myself; all the times I WANTED to say something, but I didn’t quite know how. Continue reading
I’ve been feeling really great lately. Like really, REALLY great. It’s such a far cry from the incessant anxiety, panic, intrusive thoughts, and depression that flooded me before the wedding earlier this year. Now, I spend whole days without any of those things and I’m getting to see how “normal” people must feel most of the time.
And of course, after days of sweetness and ease, my mind starts to race with, “what if all of that anxiety comes back?” Or even just, “WHEN is it going to come back?” as if I fully expect it to. I’ve also found myself feeling guilty for being so happy when so many others are suffering. I haven’t felt inspired to post about anything other than good, happy stuff on my Instagram, and I wonder if people hate seeing me bounce around all joyful. And of course, there’s always the fear of “jinxing it.” Continue reading
In the past month, I got married, went on a two-week honeymoon, turned 28, and led my first yoga retreat. Talk about a whirlwind! I’m so excited to be back to posting on the blog regularly and I have an exciting announcement to make.
In addition to the weekly Yoga + Mental Health blog posts, I am also launching a Lifestyle section to my blog, where I will share from a much broader range of topics like travel, health, wellness, relationships, and more. As my life continues to grow and evolve, this addition feels like a much more sustainable avenue for me. I’ll probably be posting a lot of travel articles soon due to the honeymoon, so if you’re only interested in the Yoga + Mental Health posts, just ignore the others! 🙂
I’m not going to lie, the week leading up to the wedding and honeymoon was a bit challenging for me. All the stress and anticipation had the “what if” thoughts bouncing around my mind like wild. As anyone struggling with anxiety knows, the “what ifs” can take over quickly if we don’t keep them in check. And when we’re experiencing major life changes or taking new steps forward, it’s naturally very uncertain and therefore, scary.
I thought, “What if I don’t make it down the aisle? What if I panic during the ceremony? What if I don’t like being married? What if we get a divorce? What if I panic on the 10 hour flight? What if I get overseas and have a mental breakdown and can’t get home? What if something horrible happens over there?” ON AND ON AND ON…
To be honest, the past few months have been challenging for me. Outside circumstances keep popping up and throwing me off and recently, something happened with family that caused me to question everything, and spiraled me into my old habits of anxiety and depression. I caught myself gripped in fear with worst-case scenarios and immobile with pessimism that things will never change or get better. I was walking around completely STUCK in my own misery. Continue reading
If you’re anything like me, you might have learned early on that you needed to gain others’ approval in order to feel worthy. This may have led to perfectionist tendencies and a deep desire to people-please. Continue reading
As many of you have probably witnessed, the “Me Too” movement, which seeks to shed light on sexual assault by encouraging those who have dealt with it to share “me too,” has flooded social media over the last couple days. I absolutely and completely LOVE that this subject is being talked about on such a widespread scale. Finally, right??