I’m willing to bet that you know who you are at the very deepest center of your being. I’m talking about the part of you that knows no fear; that is infinitely loving and wise and always has the answer; that knows all that ever matters is love.
Many of us have had fleeting moments of connection to this Self. I usually experience this sense of knowing and ease when I’m in meditation, or when I’m practicing yoga, or when I’m completely in alignment with my purpose through teaching or writing. Sometimes I feel it when I cuddle with my pup or when I hug a loved one.
And then anxiety hits and I forget about that Self. All of a sudden, that Self is no longer visible. Instead, I am gripped with fear and horror and all the love in the world has left my eyes.
I begin questioning everything- my decisions, my abilities, my relationships, my right to be happy and loved. Anxiety has the power to strip us of everything we stand for if we let it. It has the power to make us so, so small, when in reality, we are infinite.
But even in the throes of anxiety, it IS possible to wake up, and ground back to the core of who we are.
When do you feel most in alignment with that divine, immeasurable Self? Do that. Do that and remind yourself that you are more than just fear.
One of my absolute favorite ways to connect back to the core of who I am is through a journaling technique I’ll call Fear vs. Self.
If anxiety has a hold of me, I’ll open a document on my computer (or you could hand-write) and I’ll start with Fear. I’ll give Fear a voice to tell me everything it is terrified of. I give Fear an outlet to be heard and seen.
And then, I turn to Self. I call on my deepest wisdom and I respond to the Fear as a loving, wise soul would. It can be helpful to imagine how someone you love or look up to would respond to Fear. How would God, the Universe, Love, the Dalai Lama, your parent or partner who loves you respond?
I have probably hundreds of dialogues saved between my Fear and my wise Self. Here is an example of one of those dialogues from a night when I was freaking out about the idea of marriage and having children and generally just growing up.
Fear: I’m scared of growing up. I’m scared of the responsibility that comes with marriage and children. It’s been nice to have parents and people that you can fall back on and have take care of you. Without that, it means all of the responsibility falls on my shoulders and I guess I just don’t trust myself. I just don’t know if I can handle all of the responsibility. It’s scary. What if I can’t handle it and I break down but there’s no one there to help? What if I feel completely alone? What if I make a mistake?
Self: Sweet girl, I know it’s scary to think about growing up and all the responsibilities. But you are strong enough to handle whatever comes your way. You are filled with love and light. You are so very capable of manifesting your dreams. You are capable of raising a child. You are capable of being a good, loving wife. You are capable of working and of taking care of a house and home. You are capable.
Fear: It just feels like right now, I can barely take care of myself and my anxiety. When I add other people in the mix, I feel like it wouldn’t be fair to them. Like, maybe I can’t take care of them or even worse, that they’d end up having to take care of me.
Self: It’s okay to have other people help you. You can always ask for help. And the people around you love you and want to see you well. You do such a good job at taking care of your sweet puppy. What makes you think it would be any different with a child? No one has it all figured out. No one. You deserve to have a family. You deserve to have a happy life. And you can handle it. Trust in yourself. Trust in your strength. Trust in your ability. YOU ARE SO MUCH STRONGER THAN YOU KNOW.
So you can see that I moved from this small, confined sense of myself to a vast, capable, loving sense of who I am, simply by calling on and connecting back to the core of who I am.
Give this journaling technique a try the next time you’re feeling anxious. It has done wonders for me.
What about you guys? I would LOVE to hear what helps you connect back to your divine essence!